For some reason it’s become increasingly hard to become motivated for just about anything aside from the important stuff like work. I often say that I’ll find some way to sneak a note to myself of creative ideas to be done later but my job has me tunneled visioned. I find myself sapped of creativity at work, and when I return home all I want to do is waste hours on video games. I feel that a large part of this is because in the small communities of different games I play, I am surrounded by like-minded individuals that respect my voice and in some, authority. I’m not particularly good at gaming, but on my computer, my charisma and often my leadership helps win matches. However outside of my computer monitor I’m just Len.
I have unfinished books to read and write, blank paintings, incomplete goals, and responsibilities a plenty...but all I want to do is escape.
